Fuck Yes! I am doing this!!

I will not let anyone hold me back from having my dreams happen!! I will not let some stupid gross medication hold me back! Fuck that! I am doing this!! I have been laying down and song after song that has come on have been so motivating!! Now it is After a Few…which of course I do not need! I do not need alcohol to motivate me to do anything. Being sober is so amazing! I am unstoppable! But the song on now is Miss Summer and the song that was on to get me to jump out of bed and write is Take It back by Marshmello.. Marshmello presents JOYTIME!!! And that was my Grams telling me not to get down cause your dreams are coming true!! I cancelled the furniture I impulsively bought a few weeks ago and now I will have the $500-2000 I need to make my Stefanie’s Safe Space a non profit foundation! I will do this soon and then I will contact KGUN 9 News again! I emailed them about my foundation a few weeks ago but they never responded. I may contact Channel 4 also! And 104.1 Christian Radio. I know once my idea goes National, it will go World Wide. I am pretty certain that famous people who have lots of money will donate! I especially can’t wait to meet my crush Bradley Cooper, because he is passionate about being sober! And there are a lot of others who have mental illness and/or are passionate about helping with mental illness. My 13 year old nephew was going to help me go on Tik Tok and maybe he still will. I love that my nephews found God and Faith on their own! They go to the same church as I do. I missed my rededication (rebaptism) cause I was in the hospital. I will have to reschedule that. I can’t wait to go to church this Sunday at Pantano Christian! I know my nephews can feel their Uncles Ryan and Adam and Gigi..My Grams Joy! They will understand why I am doing all of this soon. I should not have bad mouthed their Mom on here at all and for that I am sorry. I was just concerned about their little sister being with their Dad cause I had flashbacks about how my Dad and Brother treated me as a child. I know their Mom is a good Mom and loves them so much!!

But I am fucking doing this!! I hope I make them so proud! I hope they will be visiting me at work soon at a big space downtown Tucson where they can walk in and be welcomed by volunteers, Peer Support Specialists, myself, and Dexter!! There will be no doctors and no drugs and it will be a safe space to go to prevent going into crisis and having to go be heavily mediated at the hospitals. There will be cheery colors everywhere including purple, teal, lime green, dark pink, greys! There will be comfy furniture ..couches, tables. There will be puzzles, diamond art, arts and crafts including wine bottle vases, door signs, jewelry making, etc. There will be a big closet full of clothes for people who have interviews, every day wear, shoes, pajamas, sweaters, etc. There will be big bathrooms with big showers and all the toiletteries for people to get clean. There will be music, musical instruments, kareoke. There will be workout classes, dance classes, yoga, meditation, vision board groups. There will be a huge kitchen with cooking classes, nutrition classes, meals cooked by volunteers. There will be water stations with cucumber, lime, raspberries. There will be iced tea stations, coffee stations, juice stations and snacks including fruits and veggies.

The first Stefanie’s Safe Space will be in my hometown Tucson!! Then I am hoping to travel the World as a public speaker and to start Stefanie’s Safe Spaces all around the World! I would love to have a house in Hawaii within a couple years! This is happening! Oh yes!! I am doing this!! My vision is going to be a reality and I can’t wait!