Hey everyone! I don’t have much time to write but thought I’d hop on and say hi to the people who are reading my blogs! Thank you so much for your support by the way! I have a job interview at 10:30am at an orthopedic office for front desk part time. I am a little nervous but excited! The shifts are only 4-5 hours so I am really hoping this job is perfect for me. I worked at a really busy orthopedic office probably about 6 years ago for a couple years. I have also worked at b

I love my life right now. I don’t have everything I want in life but I am happy, blessed, at peace, and loving life! I know I am here still for a higher purpose from God! I lost my faith in God off and on over the years, but I can confidently say that my relationship with God is better than ever. Just last October I think I had faith, but didn’t have complete faith in God that He had a plan for me still. I was giving up on my dreams and was discouraged and severely depressed

Hey friends! I haven’t written a blog since 5/29/26! I have been obsessed with posting videos on Tik Tok. It is fun and easier! I also stared a YouTube channel Stefanie’s Safe Space but haven’t been posting much on there. I recently started posted short videos on Facebook stories for my 1,160 Facebook friends most of who probably don’t follow me on Tik Tok. I currently have 943 followers on Tik Tok and would love to get to at least 1,000. One of my friends from AA has 3,000 b

I wrote a blog but deleted it. I don’t want to talk bad about my family anymore. I will just continue to pray for them. I pray that my sister and I can eventually have a relationship again, but deep in my heart I do not think that will happen. She was pretty firm about me having to take a mood stabilizer and an anti psycothic med in order to see her and my niece and nephews and there is just no way I am going to do that. I have come too far in my mental health journey now to

Hey friends! It is Saturday and I am looking forward to my women’s AA meeting at 11am. There are lots of very sweet ladies at that meeting. That is where I met my sponsor. She text me this morning and said she will be at the meeting but is unable to meet after. We usually meet after the meeting at Starbucks for an hour. Last week was kind of a bust, because I was having a hard time with some family stuff and just ended up crying. I was having a hard time letting Go and lettin

Hey everyone! I did start my own YouTube channel Stefanie’s Safe Space! Yay! I have posted a few videos so far. I am so excited! I am keeping it positive and am trying not to talk about some of the negative things I have talked about on Tik Tok and written about here on my blog. I want to start by saying I don’t think my brother sexually assaulted me when I was a kid. I still don’t know for sure and should probably do EMDR therapy, but I just want to get past it and move on.

Hi! I only have about ten minutes before I have to go pick up my sister Rina for church. I love going to Pantano Christian. I feel my angels so hard during the music. The music is always so good. I did not want too get out of bed this morning, I slept pretty good, but felt so tired this morning. I am feeling great now though! I took a shower and dried my hair and did my make up. I am wearing my pink jeans and a black shirt and my gold Stefanie’s Safe Space necklace that my be

Good Morning! I woke up early this morning, because I am going to a brunch to meet a few new friends and see a couple old ones. I feel like every morning when I wake up I am in a way mourning my sister, because she will no longer be in my life. She is toxic to me though and so it is better this way. Again, I just wish things could be different but she will never change and I need to just be as round positive and healthy people. She is giving me no choice too. She is the one w

Good Evening everyone! It is Friday night at 9:33pm! Love the number 33! It was my Uncle Scotty’s favorite number and also mine. 333 is a good angel number. If you have never looked it up, you should! Today I stayed in bed almost all day. It felt really good to be in bed. I got out of bed at I think 11:33am and had a macaroni and cheese lean cuisine and I added green chiles and chalula. I also had a Coke Zero which was really good. I did a video for Tik Tok and was going to g

Hey everyone! Thanks for stopping by to read my blogs! I have had a rough couple of months but nothing but positive vibes going forward! I want my nephews and nieces to be proud of me! I am hoping once I open a facility for Stefanie’s Safe Space my whole family will stop by on my opening day! I think I will also invite my whole family to my foundation party! I do not know when that will be but I am hoping within a year. I want to succeed and do amazing things to prove to myse

Hello Again! I decided to delete my last blog and rewrite it to make it a little more positive. This last 2 months has been so hard on me, because my sister hasn’t been talking to me and I can’t see my niece and nephews. There is still an order of protection against me until next April. The only reason my brother, sister, and ex brother in law put order of protections against me is because I called DCS and 911 on them because I do not agree with some things. I was just trying

I almost titled this blog Alone, but I am never alone because I have God and a ton of angels. My dad and I will have a relationship again but he will never understand that I had childhood trauma and also trauma when I was 22 years old and forcefully grabbed and thrown to the ground, restrained raped in the behavioral health hospital. It’s easier for him to just think I was and am delusional. I don’t think I will ever have a relationship with my Mom, sister, or brother though.

Hey everyone! I haven’t written a blog in awhile and not sure what to write. I am having a lot of fun doing Tik Tok videos! I want to share my foundation with as many people as possible. I am hoping once I make it an official 501(c)3 that people will be willing to donate so I can live my dream of having a facility for mental health with all the coping skills. I want to have art therapy, dog therapy, music, musical instruements, arts and crafts, diamond art, nutrition classes,

I haven’t typed a blog in awhile. I am obsessed with doing Tik. Tok videos now. Check it out. I am @stefaniessafespace. The last blog I said I was going to take the mood stabilizer Lamictal just for my sister so I can see her and my niece and nephews. I was excited and confident about my decision. I had been texting my sister long texts saying I was going to take Lamictal and that her and the kids mean so much to me. My texts said delivered so figured she was seeing them. I a

I had a really good day today. It’s always good to wake up sober and not have to worry about a hangover or drinking hair of the dog. I had my 2 cups of coffee and I think I talked with my Aunt Val on the phone. I had an NP psych appt at 9:30am on Teams so I got to do the appt from the comfort of my home. I really like my NP. He is cool. NP’s listen and care more than doctors. I told him I am feeling great and was able to start the new anti psychotic 2 days before I was due fo

The last few days I have been super sad that my sister doesn’t want me in her or her kids lives. I am trying not to get too depressed about and pray that she will realize I am doing so good without taking a mood stabilizer. I have to do what is best for my mental health and she has to do what is best for her mental health. It breaks my heart that part of her being mentally healthy means not having a relationship with me. I miss her so much and my niece and nephews. I am sure

I already wrote about the situation about my sister and I miss my sister, but I really was hoping she would talk to me soon. My birthday is next April 23rd and was hoping she would talk to me by then. She had said we could talk. When I found out she didn’t want to see me on Easter, I lost faith that she would have a relationship with me again. I text her a screen shot of her Facebook post she posted last September 2025 telling everyone that was my Facebook friend and not real

It has been about 12 years since I have been divorced. It was a really really hard time in my life. I went manic (had flashbacks) twice when I lived on the east coast with my husband. He was so supportive and amazing until he wasn’t. The second time I was hospitalized, he came and had lunch with me every day. I think I was there for about 2 weeks. He just had to pay $5.00 to have a really good lunch with me. I was still manic when I got out of the hospital. They gave me tons

I met my ex husband on match.com . I remember the outfit he was wearing when he picked me up for our first date. He looked like he worked at Target with kachi pants and a red polo shirt. Ha ha! I don’t even remember was I was wearing. He was such a nice guy and I thought he was attractive. He was a little on the dorky side and didn’t really work out much so didn’t have muscular arms like I usually like but that’s okay. He moved to Tucson from Michigan to get his PhD in materi

My sister and I got in a fight Saturday March 7th. It has been almost 2 weeks already. About a week or week and a half ago she said we will definitely get together and talk soon but she was busy with work and sleeping. The fight was about my medications. She thinks I need to be on a mood stabilizer and an antipsychotic. She thinks she completely understands my mental illness, because she has been with me since I was 19 months old. There is just so much more to my mental illne