Sunday Funday!

Hi! I only have about ten minutes before I have to go pick up my sister Rina for church. I love going to Pantano Christian. I feel my angels so hard during the music. The music is always so good. I did not want too get out of bed this morning, I slept pretty good, but felt so tired this morning. I am feeling great now though! I took a shower and dried my hair and did my make up. I am wearing my pink jeans and a black shirt and my gold Stefanie’s Safe Space necklace that my best friend Julie gave me for my 45th birthday! I just did a Tik Tok video and am watching it back now. My amazing friend Heather said she has had a similar dream as mine and wants to maybe collaborate to get a facility together. That would be amazing but I definitely want my facility to be called Stefanie’s Safe Space and want to mostly do this on my own. It would be amazing for her to help though and do spiritual classes. She is a peer support specialist. We did an awesome video together on my YouTube channel Ending The Stigma wit Stef. I want to start a new YouTube channel called Stefanie’s Safe Space, but I do not remember how to do it. I will have to look at it again. I need to go to the grocery store today to get a few things. I need to stop spending money eating out. I can’t wait till I am more successful and don’t have to worry about it. I love eating out. I want to get in the mood to cook more at home. I want to have a dinner party/game night party soon. I used to love hosting parties. I used to host bingo parties which were so fun! I need to have some friends over in a couple weeks and that will motivate me to clean my house really good too. I am so so happy that I do not have to take a mood stabilizer and an anti psychotic med anymore. Lithium just really took away my personality and made me feel blah and down and depressed. Depakote make me suicidal and all my hair was falling out. If you need a mood stabilizer, talk to your doctor about what is best for you. I really think you can have bi-polar though and not need a mood stabilizer. I am definitely not telling people to stop their medications but for me, I feel so much better without taking toxic med. I still take my anti depressant though which I think is helping a lot. It is okay to cry and be sad sometimes, but if it lasts more than a week or two, make sure to talk to someone. Okay well I am hoping to have a great day and hoping everyone else has a great and blessed day to. I need to got to church. Maybe I will add more to this later. Thank you for your support. Hey I am back. Today was a great Sunday Funday! Church service was so amazing! I had a clear sign from God that was much needed. I am so happy! I can’t talk about it on here but it is something I have been having a hard time with deciding. After church I went to the Next Steps room to see my good friends Sherry and Mario. I also saw a medical doctor who works at Palo Verde Behavioral Health. I remember him wearing a U of A shirt when I saw him at the hospital. I had seen him a few times there. He probably has been working there for years. I told him I am starting my own non profit foundation for mental health and he was so cool and said that’s great and he said let me know if you need help with anything. I gave him one of my business cards! My sister Rina and I went to Chipotle after church and got chips and guacamole and a side of fajita peppers. I also got a Coke Zero. It was so good! I usually get chicken tacos or a chicken bowl with fajita peppers but never thought to just get a side of the peppers with chips and guacamole . It was so yum. It was Rina’s idea. She has done that before. We then met my best friend Julie at Home Goods and it was so fun! I at first did not want to go because I knew I would want everything and don’t want to spend money. I just ended up getting a dish soap that is in a cute container with lemons that I can refill. It was only $6.00 bucks. We all tried out some really comfortable recliners in the middle of the store. They were $500 each. I do not need any more furniture. I just gave another friend from AA 2 recliners that I had gotten from my Step Mom when her Dad passed away. I have a love seat in my guest bedroom I will give to Rina when she gets her own apartment hopefully soon. I was blessed with an expensive real leather sectional recliner couch from my Dad and Step Mom. I already had a comfortable cloth sectional but put half in my master bedroom and half in my library aka AZ room. The wires in the recliner they gave me were chewed by their dog so the recliners did not work. My Dad kept saying he would have someone fix them. He said if I can find someone to fix them, he would pay. I found this super cool guy on my Facebook who came and fixed them for free. My Dad paid for the parts that we ordered on Amazon. My Dad insisted on paying the guy but he kept refusing. I said at least please take some money for gas and he did! I am so blessed with this house that used to be my Uncle Scotty’s rental property. My Uncle Scotty died right before I had to foreclose on my house after my divorce. My Dad and Step Mom bought this house for me from my Aunt and other Uncles. I have the cutest office that I am in now. This house is 3 bedrooms 2 bath plus a cute little library. I really need to scrub my master shower which is all tile. My Uncle Pete and his friend Matty and my Dad put a lot of work into this house including tile baseboards. I will be sad when I finally move out of this house but I can’t wait to have a custom built house once I am so successful with my non profit foundation. Okay I just posted another Tik Tok video but now am going to jam out to music and work on my penguin diamond art that is so colorful and cheery. I am leaving in about an hour for the Happy Joyeous and Free 5:30pm AA meeting. I think I will redo my make up since I cried out off. It was a good cry for the most part. Okay thank you so much for your support! Remember, there is so much help, support, resources for mental health. If you don’t know where to start, check out NAMI. National Alliance of Mental Illness!