Saturday

This morning I woke up at about 6am. I should have gotten ready quick and went to the 6:30am AA meeting. I hesitated and then it was too late to get ready and go. I wanted to celebrate my 3 years sobriety with some amazing people at that meeting. I may go tomorrow, but I am also going to pick up a friend and go to the 8:30am meeting that I love. This.will be my third time going. And then we are going to church after at 10:30am to Pantano Christian. Then we are going to our good friend’s house from AA for lunch. I don’t know if I mentioned this, but I was invited there every other Sunday which is amazing! Today I was going to swim laps, but decided not to go. I would have had to gotten there right at about 8am so I would have enough time to go to the 11am Women’s meeting that I love. So I just ended up listening to music and watched a little bit of the show Sirens and then curled my hair and did my make up. The 11am meeting was really good. Someone got 15 years sober and somebody got 17 years sober! A lot of good shares. Wish I had a better memory and could remember better. I met with my sponsor at Starbucks after I dropped my friend home. We talked a bit and then did some reading. I like my sponsor a lot and think it will go really good! Thursday my bathtub broke. The faucet wouldn’t turn off. I was freaking out. I asked my neighbor to come over to help and luckily he was available to help. But he said it is the valve that needs to be replaced. He showed me where the water turns off in my backyard so I just had to turn the water off to the house unless I needed it to take a shower, flush the toilet, wash my hands, get water for my paint brushes cause I did a littl arts and crafts today. I am so blessed that a good friend from AA, Edward, who is a plumber and works for maintence doing pretty much everything was able to come over today to help me with my bathtub valve. He is here now. It was really hard to get the old valve off. I am definitely paying him. My Dad said he will pay me back since he technically owns the house. Edward went to Home Depot before he came here to get the valve for $80.00 cause I sent him a picture of what it looked like. He just got done and refused to be paid. He is the sweetest. I just gave him the $80.00 for the valve and offered him $50 or $100 cash but he said no. I am so excited to be able to have my water on in my house and a working bathtub. It was finicky before when I turned it to hot, but this was the first time it didn’t shut off. I prayed to God when it happened and I was trying to turn it off…please turn off. But God answered my prayers another way. I asked Edward Thursday after the meeting despite knowing he has a busy schedule. Thankfully he was able to do it today!! It’s 4:05pm now and I am just waiting to go to AA at 5:30pm. I am wearing my FUCK PTSD shirt today although the CK is a teal ribbon. One of my good friends last night said she has learned so much from my blogs about bi-polar and that we need to have more compassion for people. That meant a lot to me! I gave her and my other friends my business cards. I have a lot of business cards to use up before I order more, but I am excited to get business cards with my owl logo with blue eyes that was created from my tattoo. My tattoo artist for this tattoo is Eddie at Brainwave!! He is so awesome! He was at Jesse’s tattoo shop when my cousin was there getting tattoos from him. I just stopped by to say hi to my cousin and spontaneously got my bad ass owl tattoo. I had a picture but he made it so much better. I have gotten 3 bad ass tattoos from Jesse. A rhino on my lateral left ankle. My sister got a matching one on her arm cause our last name is Rhyner and “Rhyno” has just been a family nick name. We are all bad asses! Jesse also did some awesome flowers and butterflies on my left forearm and before that he did Life is tough but so am I with s heart and a semi colon. So right now I have business cards with a purple and teal ribbon with a feather and birds that is really pretty. They have my old number on them and don’t have the LLC yet. My other cards have the picture of an owl I found. The colors are pretty but the eyes are yellow and they need to be blue like my Grams Joyce. They have the LLC and just my email not my phone number. I just write my phone number for people I want to have my phone number. When I pass them out at the NAMI walk, I probably won’t write my number on them unless someone asks. And on the older ones I will just scribble over my old phone number. Should be getting my shirts and hat soon from Aladdin Graphics! I am excited about that. A few friends and family are paying me to have a shirt! I don’t think one of my cousins even has looked at my website yet. She still wanted a shirt, but the other day she asked me what my purpose is of my facility. If she looked at my website she would have seen my purpose and mission statement. But that’s okay. Next time I see her I will just ask her to look at my website. She doesn’t have to read any blogs. My other cousin has looked and read some of my blogs. She is supportive of my foundation, but she doesn’t realize how big it will get and how fast. I keep comparing my foundation to NAMI. I want it to just be donations and grants. She said I should bill AHCCCS. But the whole point of my foundation is that it will be better than a hospital. I am certain my foundation will go National and then Worldwide. I already have a worldwide website and blog that everyone can see. For now, I have just been sharing it on Facebook though. I think some blogs have about 150 or more views but most have only 30-55 views. It will get there though. I need to start doing Tik Tok videos. I was hoping my 14 year old nephew will help me. He said he would last year or maybe it was the year before. I will obviously start with one facility in Tucson. Hoping it can be big but if it is not big enough, I will just create a second location is Tucson when I get more donations and grants. And then I always dreamed of my second location being in Hawaii, but maybe I will just vacation there and/or buy a house there eventually. I will do my out of state location where it is most needed. Maybe I will just do one in Phoenix before branching out of the state. We will see. But I am trying to stay humble and calm and grounded and just take it one step at a time. Thank you for all your support. And if you want to come with me to the NAMI walk on 4/11 let me know! Or if you’d like to donate to the NAMI walk, I have a team called Stefanie’s Safe Space!