I don’t need a man, but I want a man!

I don’t need a $100,000 scratcher ticket to get a new car! I have always bought new cars on my own. Went to a great AA meeting this morning… a guy named Jason in a bright orange shirt said he got out of rehab, got a check and wanted a little meth but was robbed! In that moment my cousin Ryan hugged me so hard (I hugged myself for him)…got up and hugged him and told him he is loved and that my cousin did meth and died at 44. He said he is 45! I said you are going to be good! It was a gift from God that he was robbed so he could not buy drugs and stay clean. I left the meeting 10 minutes early and went and talked to Penny at the Lottery office (I almost named this blog Penny) and she said my scratcher was worth $5 bucks! Ha ha! What I paid. But right now I am trying to get approved for a 2022 Mercedes Black beautiful SUV. I thought I was going to get approved for sure with a payment less than $600… and I still may but that is with keeping my Jeep Cherokee for my future husband! But I do not need 2 cars! I need to stop taking care of everyone else especially people who do not need help. He is a strong man that is already so successful and overcame so much! I called my Step Mom with my new number and left a message in tears at the end asking what I need to do to buy this house from her. It was my Uncle Scotty’s rental property and I have been here for 11 years! It is def my house but not technically cause I am not on the title. My Father said I can live here as long as I want! I got approved for $7,000 of furniture or something crazy like that and have a whole new bedroom set being delivered in 6 weeks or so. I am doing things so out of order cause I am spiraling and just need to be 100% independent again!! This trauma is a lot to work through but I am doing it!!! Gotta figure out my roommate situation too! I have my LLC bank account appt at Wells Fargo at 1pm so I will continue to focus on the positive!! I also booked a trip to San Diego for next week and I just have to clear it with my court appointed psychiatrist tomorrow! But I def need a good relaxing “Me trip’ and am hoping to drive my new car there!!