Pretty Woman

As I lay in my comfy bed with a big soft purple comforter, I turn on the movie Pretty Woman!! I know this is real life but as I have on my red and black power outfit for my interview that was offered to me on the spot! I was able to negotiate the start date, pay, and hours which all worked out so freaking perfect for me!! The walk to the building was awesome, the street I passed was awesome , the address is awesome!! More about that later! As I have a bit of anxiety right now, I want to write about an experience (one of many) that I had on my way home! Was on my way to Zinburger, because it was my Uncle Scotty’s favorite restaurant and the last place I saw him before he took his life! He has guided me there before! I accidentally took the turn too quick and ended up in the Mercedes dealership parking lot! My dream car is a Mercedes and I was so excited cause I knew I was going to be able to pick whichever one I wanted!! I looked around as I parked … yelled out to the older gentleman washing the cars with a Cubs shirt on!! Told him heck ya Go Cubs!! My Dad went to the World Series!! He was like ya!!

I parked and looked around for a sales person. When I’ve bought cars before the sales guys and women are so quick to come up to you!! Not in this case! I always wanted a Mercedes but didn’t think I’d really ever be able to buy one! Used to vision renting one for a week before I die! So I walked past the brand new ones and picked my favorite … black 2 door sporty convertible… cream or white leather interior .. still no sales person! It was a 300 something by the way. I walk into the dealership so excited to be able to test ride a Mercedes! I picked a guy who looked like he had nothing going on! His head was down in his phone and facing away from the door! I said hi excuse me how are you?? I was telling him how excited I was to buy a Mercedes!! I sat down and he just looked at me as I told him how I bought a mustang convertible with like less than 1,000 miles maybe closer to like 60! It was a brand new 2006 that guess other people test drove or someone bought it quick and had to return it! I don’t even remember! I know I had a good Firefighter friend of mine Gordon with me who had the hook up cause I think he used to sell cars .. now he is a Fire chief!! At that time I had a car that was completely paid off from selling my first house that I bought at 22! I told the guy Mark that I bought my first house at 22… second one at 25! Told him I’m not sure I can buy a Mercedes today but I’d like to test drive one! I told him the one I wanted and asked how much it was … I already told him I was starting my own foundation and will be able to pick any car I want soon! He looked it up and it was like $75,000! He was like do you have anything to trade in? I said yes a 2019 Jeep Cherokee ! I said I think I may have negative equity tho! But not sure cause I haven’t tried to trade it in for about 2 years! He said how many miles are on it… I was like not sure I can go look! Can you help me look up my value? How much money would I have to put down? He said about 30% or something so I was like okay cool so about $30,000. I said I just got a personal loan .. paid off credit cards, am opening an LLC, my credit score is 720! I said are you going to help me! From the beginning he was saying they don’t like to put any miles on them if they aren’t going to sell it! I said well I will be able to buy it so soon! Can you look up to see if I qualify for a loan!? He said no… I said okay I may be able to. He said no ! I said okay so you want me to go to my bank and ask and then come back and use a different salesman or a different dealership.. he looked at me kind of confused and like a superior asshole! I got up and I said okay that’s what you want me to go do?! As I started to walk away… I said okay I’m going to come back and use a different sales guy and they can get the commission!! And he just didn’t really say anything! As I walked away and out the door I just laughed and felt so amazing cause I’m so so excited to be able to come back and have my Pretty Woman moment with him!!! You remember me from the other day, I was in here and you wouldn’t help me! You work on commission right?! Big mistake!! Huge!! Well I have to go shopping now!! And then go buy that car or any other car I want ! F the stigma! I was just telling my truth.. about how successful I’ve been since I was 22, and guess he thought I sounded like a “crazy person”! I looked nice! I was dressed in a beautiful red shirt, a black skirt.. and I changed into my expensive black nice Reef sandals I got from San Diego cause they were more comfortable than my heels to walk downtown .. so hopefully I can go back in about 6 months after I’ve done some really hard shit to save my family, lost hopefully about 40-50 pounds, have an even better outfit on, and my hair maybe dyed biolage (for a good deal cause so already have 2 private hair stylists) one for my trim tomorrow and one to dye my hair! I will have fashion designer friends who will help design my very first custom gown for whatever the Fuck I want! A fundraising party for my foundation at the Hilton on Broadway that my Gramps John was the civil engineer on! I already went there a couple weeks ago the night before I went into the mental hospital for 8 nights… sat at the bar.. met some super cool people , had a club sandwich with fries and ranch (one of my Mom’s favs) a soda water cause I’m 18 months sober tomorrow and going to an AA party! And then I walked around the whole place even to the second floor to see the pool or maybe the 4th floor! I went to both cause I forgot what they said, called the front desk to ask which floor cause I didn’t see any pool signs… they corrected me.. jumped back into the clear elevator.. looked out into the hotel lobby of the hotel I will own one day to do whatever I want with! Maybe that will be the first building I buy! That was my dream last time I was in the hospital 4 years ago! But either way, will have a huge fundraising party there that will be bigger than a wedding ! Roses everywhere … purple teal and pink… the colors of my foundation…not pink and pink like the other movie Julia Roberts was in that I’m spacing on but will think of soon! Steal Magnolias! I will have a band … floating candles in the pool! Servers serving the fancy word for appetizers .. I never remember how to say or spell that but I’ll look it up later!! Basically it will be so amazing! And I can tell Mark … in your face! Fuck the stigma!! Alright I’m going to finish watching Pretty Woman, write down the exact quote I keep hearing since I went to a meeting at AA on Monday! Then taking a nap and going back to AA at 4pm to hopefully see Edward again!!