Yellow

I am going to have fun writing this blog. After an AA meeting last night, my friend Jake and I went to Zinburger for a really nice dinner. I had zucchini fries, a hamburger with carmelized onions, tomato, bacon, avocado, and manchego cheese. It was so yum! I also got a soda water with a splash of cranberry and lemon. I wasn’t going to get a milkshake but the milkshake of the month was butterfinger. I have been through so much the last few days and definitely deserved to treat myself. The tax ended up being my favorite angel number $3.33. Zinburger was one of my Uncle Scottay’s favorite restaurants and it was the last place I saw him. We sat in a high table with my Dad, step Mom, Aunt Val and I think my Uncle Glenn. I sat right across from my Uncle Scotty and like typical Scotty, he spilled on his shirt and we laughed cause I do the same thing. I had no idea he was depressed. He took his own life just days later I believe. I was in town visiting from New York. But I am going to bring it back to the positive. On the way to take Jake home I told him a few good stories. I want to do my first huge foundation party at the Hilton hotel on Broadway and Pantano, because even though it is really old, it is awesome! Also my Gramps John was the head civil engineer when it was designed and built. There is a clear glass elevator which is so rad! I went there a few months ago and got the name of the event coordinator. I walked around looking at where roses would go and the band and the bar and food. I definelty want cocktail servers and also with appetizers. It reminded me of my brothers’ first wedding because it was at The Buites on the east side and they did big white van rides back to the hotel. I was going to plan on maybe just having a dry party with no alcohol, but just because I don’t drink.. I don’t mind if others do as long as they are responsible. I will make it clear that everyone who drinks either needs a DD or can take a van ride that will be paid for by me. My brothers’ first wedding was bad ass! There is a super fun picture of my brother and my cousin Adam who passed away at age 33. I wore a hot pink Barbie dress with sequins on the top and spaghetti straps. It was above my knees and I also wore silver heels. My hair was blonde blonde and I had my hairstylist curl it really cute. My ex sis in law Kim was so cool. She insisted that I bring a date even though I did not have a boyfriend and was not really dating anyone. I had kind of started talking to and dating a guy named Alex who was a nurse at St Josephs Hospital. I met him when I transported patients there as an EMT. He was the sweetest and not only did he bring me beautiful yellow roses, but he also shaved his beard for me! Ha ha! He looked so young but good! He did not even know that the wedding color was yellow with yellow bridesmaids and Yellow by Coldplay playing as they walked down the aisle. We had such a blast! I also have a great picture with my Dad, Uncle Scotty, and Grandpa Fritz. Oh wait that was at my sisters’ wedding at the same place in my red bridesmaid dress. Just so Edward knows, I would never make him shave his beard! Ha ha! Edward is my soulmate. I made a blog about him called Edward. Anyway, we all took the white van back to the Hilton hotel and I think Alex and I shared a room with my cousin Ashleigh and someone else..can’t remember. So there was Nico hanky panky that night! Lol.. Think we kissed but that was it. And I think he was a good dancer but can’t remember. Today as I went up Mt. Lemmon.. that will be a separate blog, I wondered if Edward is a good dancer. I bet he is! There is another story about yellow. When I was talking to my Aunt about that story… by the way 2 guys shaved their beards for me! Ha ha! One of them I was barely started dating .. but I told him I did not like his longer beard. He was over and we were drinking together and he broke one of my favorite wine glasses from a winery in Sonoita. As he was walking to his car I yelled bye..Love you! Cause I was drunk and I say I love you to all my family and some of my friends. He said it back and thought I meant it. (Eye roll). Ha ha! That ended shortly after and he actually ended up looking kind of bad without his beard! Ha ha! I was telling my Aunt these stories and she said when she went to adopt her new puppy, he was assigned the yellow collar and she played the song Yellow by Coldplay. She said the lady cried and didn’t cry when any other the other puppies left. She was just so excited cause she could tell that my Aunt Val is the best dog Mom ever. I can’t wait to write about my day today. Maybe I will go ahead and write it now. I may take a quick break and finish my little diamond art that is framed and has a Santa hat with believe written across it. I am waiting for the cops to call me back because I am reporting my ex brother in law for raping my 6 year old niece since she was 2 years old. I won’t get into all the details but I will put him in prison and my sister who I love so much with have full custody of her baby girl. It has been a rough few days and I appreciate the respect and space I am getting from everyone and the continued prayers and love! Also, I really appreciate those of you who still reached out to check on me! Thank you so much friends and family! Love you all!!!