Fire

Today when I went up to the top of Mt Lemmon I saw 5 guys on Harley’s taking pics of each other on top of a big rock! I went over there and asked if they wanted me to take a pic of them all together and they said yes! I took a few and asked them where they are from! They said Chicago and I said no fucking way.. My Dad is a Wrigley Field guy! Meant to say die hard Cubs fan but same thing! They were cool and we chatted for a bit! They asked me if I have business cards but I was bummed that I don’t have them yet! I should get 600 within a week! They went to their Harley’s and I went to my 2019 Jeep Cherokee. I took a minute to text my Dad telling him I’m okay and safe! I text him on my way to Mt Lennon from the parking lot at Viv’s Cafe which is where he usually is in the mornings if he’s in town but he wasn’t there and didn’t text me back. He lives like 2 minutes from there and I told him I needed to see him and hug him! I knew I’d bust out crying if I hug him though so was kind of glad he didn’t respond! He text later saying he’d be home in the afternoon if I want to come over and he’s going to Chicago in a week or 2. I told him I’m safe and just going to drive down the mountain and go relax at home which is my “safe space” now! I followed the Harley guys down the mountain part way till they stopped somewhere else! I threw them the peace sign and kept going! The owl tattoo I got a few days ago spontaneously for my Grams is still pretty warm to the touch so I keep holding my arm and it hurts a bit but I always grab my wrists and forearms when my angels and God are telling me “we got you” ! And as I was following the Chicago dudes down the Mountuan, I thought about my Dad guiding me down the ladder of a house fire! I used to have such a fear of being in a fire! I also wanted to be a fire fighter though and was in a fire when I was a Tucson Fire Cadet and Leiutenent from age 16-19 years old. I am the biggest empath though and feel everyone’s pain so I feel like I’ve kind of felt what it would be like to be in a fire! I told my Dad to buy 3 escape ladders for my nephews and niece at their 2 story house and he did! At our 2 story house we grew up in, we had a fire escape plan of course! My sis and I could just climb out the window and dangle down from the porch roof… there was even a pole there at one point for tether ball or whatever it’s called!! But as I was going down the mountain, I felt like my Dad was saving me from a fire!! A fire of my life with my Mother! And I just grabbed my right forearm where my new warm tattoo is with my left arm as I was driving! My angels are constantly letting me know they got me!! And I can tell my truth and not hold back anything cause I’m worried people will think I’m Crazy!!

I’m escaping the fire and am so ready to live my life so hard!!