I feel so amazing right now typing on my brand new Apple laptop but it is actually an iPad Air which is even more rad!! It is light and teal/blueish with a white keyboard that is so easy to use! I am at Starbucks close to AA cause I am not sure if Pima Alamo Club has WiFi or not! There is a cool area with tables and a snack bar though to write and I do not need WiFi to type my blogs. Just realized that cause I can use Microsoft Word and copy and paste! I need to leave in abou

I should be going to sleep now, but after getting home from the behavioral health hospital early this afternoon, I’ve had so much I want to get done! Put in some laundry now and got some cleaning done! I had a total PTSD breakdown and the Sherriff had to take me in for 15 nights! The doctor was absolutely horrible and I ended up getting court ordered to take a medication I don’t like! I was dumb I guess to think I could advocate for myself to continue taking the meds that wo

Now that I’ve told most of my truth… the important things and figured out that my whole family will be there for me so strong except my Mom! I’m not sure if and when I will be able to forgive her! I can now write in peace and nobody can stop me, nobody can silence me, nobody can ever tell me to shut up or what to do or not do!! I’m the boss of my own life bitches!! I’m still doing my blogs on my cellphone cause I can type faster and it’s just been easier all around cause my p

I honestly don’t care what anyone’s religion is… God, Jesus, Jewish, Budist, Atheist, Agnotic! All I wanted is for my family to have faith in me! I’ve been so successful in my life and even after having to start all over after a divorce.. I fought so hard to stay alive and to have purpose! My number one purpose has always been my nephews and neices! I love them so much! But luckily I have a nice home to live in (thanks to my Dad, Step Mom, and Uncle Scotty). It’s okay to ask

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So I had an amazing AA meeting this morning and leading up to it I was listening to a family Christian radio station 104.1 I believe and songs have been guiding my whole life since I was 16 and I was so confused and didn’t truly understand but I knew it was my angels speaking to me!! So the story that was on was a woman who lost her child to abortion and felt so guilty and she lost her son and Mom. So I called them and told them everything I related to… they transferred me to

I used to go to Calvery Church once in awhile and I liked it and liked the pastor, but I found my new church and I look forward to going every Sunday! Pantano Christian! I grabbed a card from the ladies room and was impressed right now when I flipped it over and saw NAMI which is such a great resource and so are the other 3 resources that were provided for domestic violence I think ! Very cool!

I think I finally have someone working on the exact car sticker I want with the owl!! But Fuck it! For now, I hate waiting and this is what happened!! I hope some others around town in Tucson or (wherever you are) will join in with F*uck the Stigma!! End the Stigma!! I know after talking to my Dad, brother, and sister today… I had different outcomes.. good and bad! But they all have zero faith in God and do not believe my trauma still! I don’t give an F what you believe in,

I feel like I got hit by a train after the day I’ve had so far! A lady in the early morning AA meeting said she likes to remember that she can always restart her day! She had to restart her day 3 times since she woke up and before getting to a meeting at 630am. So that’s what I’m doing! I’m doing a reset. I met with my Dad which I thought went pretty well. I talked a lot cause I had a lot to say, but I didn’t shed one tear and I held it together ! I was there about 25 min bef

I’m having a day but I’m on a schedule ! 23 years ago was 9/11! My trauma was when I was 22! I was 21 when 9/11 happened and was 22 when my worst trauma happened and I felt God and my Gramps (navy civil engineer) who had just passed away!! Looking back I know I had everyone who died in 9/11 with me during my trauma! I felt them all walking with me in the middle of the night at my brand new house in Corona De Tucson when I was 22 and had a mustang convertible! The darkness tri

I freaking love writing and being able to tell my whole truth without holding back at all! Sex and The City group of friends!! I’m Carrie Bradshaw obviously!! Lol I’ve always been so honest, but there has been a lot of things I haven’t been able to talk to my family about or anyone. I tried to talk to my family about my vision of meeting an amazing man named Bradley Michael Miller! I first had this vision right after my divorce while I was having the hardest time and staying

Today when I went up to the top of Mt Lemmon I saw 5 guys on Harley’s taking pics of each other on top of a big rock! I went over there and asked if they wanted me to take a pic of them all together and they said yes! I took a few and asked them where they are from! They said Chicago and I said no fucking way.. My Dad is a Wrigley Field guy! Meant to say die hard Cubs fan but same thing! They were cool and we chatted for a bit! They asked me if I have business cards but I was

3 nights before I was admitted to Palo Verde: I just called the crisis line and was very happy and impressed! 520-622-6000. It was the first one I googled …I’m going to take a hot bath now and try to relax! I was so tired and took anxiety/sleep meds and thought I’d sleep for sure but as much as I’m trying to be strong and good, I am in crisis! And as much as I want to help other people, I need help! My therapist discharged me recently cause I was doing so well but I will call

I really want to write a book but can’t focus right now! My cousin mentioned my Facebook posts are too long so I will probably start my own blog soon! It will be called StefaniesSafeSpace.Com Also would love to find a ghost writer to write my books for me!! I love writing and will probably write my own at some point! And there will be many… my dating life and all the funny crazy and bad and good stories (I joked to a cop once in Crisis that I will be like Carrie Bradshaw)! T

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